I have to be honest with you: I’m not loving life right now. It’s COLD. Oh so cold. No more football for like 260 days. We are in this season of waiting on God to tell us what’s next. Don’t get me wrong. I’m a very blessed man. I have an OUTSTANDING wife and awesome kids. We have some great friends we get to do life with. But you know what? I’m cranky. I’m tired of being cold and being a stay at home dad. Blah.
And that’s ok. You see, we all get cranky at times. We all get sick of the weather and where life has us in certain seasons. We want Spring to come or we want that baby to be born NOW (so said my wife when she was 9 months pregnant) or we want God to fill us in on what he’s got planned for us.
And so I wait. For Spring and warmer weather. For God to lead me to the right church to be their pastor. For whatever comes next. But often God is doing the most work when he seems to be silent. It is in the midst of pain and waiting and the long winter that God changes us. We are like a seed that is buried in the cold, dark ground. That seed needs that time in uncertain darkness before it matures and is ready to grow and bear fruit. (…or vegetables if I was really going to be true to the metaphor. But I like fruit much more than vegetables and who talks about bearing much vegetables??)
But today? Today my OUTSTANDING wife brought me a donut. Because, even when you are trying to be healthy and lose weight, sometimes you just need a donut to help you make it through another day. And I will continue to trust Jesus and know that he is good. Because he created donuts. Oh- and also, because he loves me and he knows what I need, which is often different that what I want. Sort of like donuts and a weight loss plan…