Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make straight your paths.
Proverbs 3:5-6 (ESV)
Its a Bible verse I’ve had memorized for almost 3 decades. However, actually living out the truth of it is a whole other matter! Its an easy verse to quote to your friends who are going through a tough time. When YOU are the one in the dark valley, when YOU are the one that is confused, frustrated, and running out of patience, it is much harder to believe that God will make your paths straight.
And yet… And yet I look back and I see God’s hand on my life and I know that He WILL make my paths straight and He WILL lead and guide me to the right place.
When Kristin and I were engaged and I didn’t know where I was going to be working or where we would live, God led us to Colorado. And in Colorado he helped us lay the foundation for our marriage and led us to friends who will always be there for us- wherever we live or do ministry.
When we desperately wanted to be parents and we kept experiencing the pain of miscarriage, God was there with us for those 3 long, empty years. And now we have two beautiful children!
When our daughter Rebecca was born not breathing and we heard the doctors say the words “brain damage”, God was there. And he healed our little girl and she is perfectly healthy and a joy to all she meets!
And so, I know that God is moving and working- even in the silence. Even in this desert season. And someday we will look back and see how God was there with us-even when we feel so alone. And so I will choose not to lean on my own understanding but to trust God will all of my heart. Its not easy-not but any stretch. But its a daily choice I will continue to make.